Thursday began
like any day, a faint groan as I rolled like a walrus underneath the
protective duvet. Followed by a lukewarm shower made worse by the thin,
cold and stiff towel. After a steaming mug of tea I was ready to leave
for school.
When I got to school, I found my friends standing in an impenetrable circle chatting loudly, almost bragging, about a party which I hadn't been invited to this weekend. I wouldn't have gone anyway, it's not my sort of thing. That's what I told myself anyway. The loudest said how he was going to get smashed. Totally. I laughed and promptly reminded him of an incident a couple of weeks a go where he was caught daydrinking by the police. In public. This is probably a good time to mention the school I attend. This grammar school, which has an entrance exam, contains students in the top 25% of the country. Apart from my friends. I hang out with them because they're sporty, like me, and not total sweats at school getting 100% in every test they do. Then i'm here, stuck in the middle. Too clever to be considered cool, but not totally wanting to be classed as a nerd or a geek although it would sort out a lot of problems. My laziness and stubborness are my greatest downfalls.
The rest of the day went by like an express train. No time to stop for breath. Despite this, I felt good. Mainly due to the fact that I had made some progress with a girl - don't laugh at me please thanks - girlfriends are few and far between and my friends all have their barbie dolls, more makeup than personality but they appeal to my friends' neanderthal character. But I digress. This girl is in the same situation as me, popular friends but smart. When we talk we both laugh and have fun, we sit next to each other in quite a few subjects; I'm in a rut though, nothings moving, this is as painful as being rejected. That sense that your feelings aren't mutual, those deeply personal feelings, corrode your brain. Until today, when she smiled at me as I waited for the bus. That feeling is powerful, more powerful than drugs. Only time will tell if anthing becomes of this. Oh and this is my first post, hope you enjoyed it, please subscribe or comment or share! Or all 3 it would really make me happy!
When I got to school, I found my friends standing in an impenetrable circle chatting loudly, almost bragging, about a party which I hadn't been invited to this weekend. I wouldn't have gone anyway, it's not my sort of thing. That's what I told myself anyway. The loudest said how he was going to get smashed. Totally. I laughed and promptly reminded him of an incident a couple of weeks a go where he was caught daydrinking by the police. In public. This is probably a good time to mention the school I attend. This grammar school, which has an entrance exam, contains students in the top 25% of the country. Apart from my friends. I hang out with them because they're sporty, like me, and not total sweats at school getting 100% in every test they do. Then i'm here, stuck in the middle. Too clever to be considered cool, but not totally wanting to be classed as a nerd or a geek although it would sort out a lot of problems. My laziness and stubborness are my greatest downfalls.
The rest of the day went by like an express train. No time to stop for breath. Despite this, I felt good. Mainly due to the fact that I had made some progress with a girl - don't laugh at me please thanks - girlfriends are few and far between and my friends all have their barbie dolls, more makeup than personality but they appeal to my friends' neanderthal character. But I digress. This girl is in the same situation as me, popular friends but smart. When we talk we both laugh and have fun, we sit next to each other in quite a few subjects; I'm in a rut though, nothings moving, this is as painful as being rejected. That sense that your feelings aren't mutual, those deeply personal feelings, corrode your brain. Until today, when she smiled at me as I waited for the bus. That feeling is powerful, more powerful than drugs. Only time will tell if anthing becomes of this. Oh and this is my first post, hope you enjoyed it, please subscribe or comment or share! Or all 3 it would really make me happy!
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